130.5, freshman fifteen

BMR - 1436.7 x 1.2
daily caloric needs = 1724.04
i have to have a -7000 calorie deficit if i want to lose 2 pounds a week. so 1000 x 7 is 7000. so, i need to only consume about 700 calories a day.

in

maple and brown sugar oatmeal - 160
raisins - 42
apple - 100
orange juice - 110
cheerios - 140
total  = 552

out

20 crunches

love, lex

117

uhh.. this is getting to be too much. i just keep bingeing. usually i try to lose the healthy way.. but does anyone know about laxatives? do they work?

love, lex

114

:) so far today... grapes! love it.

lovelovelove, lex

raw food?

yea, it's seriously 4:57 AM right now. i haven't gone to sleep yet! i never, ever drink soda. but tonight i thought diet coke would be a good idea at a restaurant. drank 3! i guess my caffeine immunity is gone haha. this is crazy, i'm not even tired. also, i'm an idiot and ate like so much pasta and four rolls for dinner! you know when you're at a restaurant and the portions are out of control? i don't feel too bad though because i've really been working out more than usual :) those leg lifts!

but yea, i'm thinking about eating only raw food for a week. hopefully longer than that, but if i start at a week then it doesn't seem so bad! i mean, it's really not that bad. i just have to go shopping. i love fruit. and then i can eat veggies, nuts, and sushi? that actually sounds good :) the real reason i want to is because i'm trying to cleanse my system of toxins. i know it's weird but i heard it's really good for your skin! mine has been acting up lately, probably because of the mono, but still. yea :) so starting right now, raw food it is!

love, lex

old country bufFAT

 kill meeee ): the only good thing about today was that i started doing leg lifts for my abs. i read about it on healthkicker! hopefully that gets my flab into shape. i never post pictures because of privacy reasons, but i feel like i need to start keeping track of what my body looks like. i want ABS! or some definition! skinny, perfection.

 
i just feel like a big slab of fat. thick and gross. okay, i'm not 200 lbs. but no one is going to look at that body and be like DAMN. because it's just average ): the side view is so gross. you can see a shadow where my fat is. ew.

love, lex